Another goal!

 

At the beginning of the year everyone always gets on the weight loss band wagon. Some fall off and some complete the goal of losing the lbs. they wanted.

I started out like many, wanting to make sure I made this the year, the year I would get fit. So like many others I ate good, exercised my butt off and the lbs. started dropping. Then by mid March the excuses started setting in, the feeling of "I want to lose weight" faded away. I stared gaining my lbs., slowly back, then I realized dam it is June already and I haven't made any process, I'm not sure why I was surprised with how I was eating. This birthday party, that special occasion, so many excuses.

So with renewed spirit of weight-loss I vow again to myself to be the best shape of m life by Jan 1st 2014!

This past week I have been doing ok in the food department. I still have issues with sweets. They are hard for me, it seems worse now I'm on steroids for my asthma. I will not give up, I will not give in or quit! I did manage to lose 1 lb. this past week. How?? Not sure, you got me?? Seems the times I don't watch what I eat is the time I lose, go figure!

 

My workouts this past week I completed:

1 mile run

2 mile run

1 mile run

 

Goal for this coming week:

Drink and eat less sugary stuff eat more veggies

 

My inspiration for this coming week:

 

Another one bites the dust....a week that is, no lbs.

So this last week was a dozy, I ended up gaining over 2 lbs. !!

I tried following these fad diets, these so called best for weight-loss diets and none of them have lasting results for me. I have been craving tons of sugar, my sweet tooth is at large! So I need to get this under control.

I'm in the same position I started back in January! I let the struggles of life get the better of me and I did not put me first. Not to say I didn't try a lot, I have to say its been a lot more than years before. I just give up so quick and feel like all this is for nothing some times.

 Last night I had awoken to the most awful pain in my throat, why do I do this to myself? It was 4am and I was throwing up my guts, again I have eaten something before bed that was horrid on my tummy in the middle of the night. My bodies reaction = throw up this shi! This is the second time in a week I have gotten sick because I indulged on foods I shouldn't.

It is a viscous cycle of eat good foods during the day, binge at night. I'm on a roller coaster going no where but a full circle of deprivation and binges. I'm in full blown eating disorder! I need to get off this and just live to be happy. I cant let the fear of the unknown lead me back to the place I'm comforted with. What I mean by this is fear will lead me away from being fit because the fear of being fit will lead to I don't know??? I'm comfortable with being fat because I have no expectations of me and of myself so I stay in that mode. Some times to get where we need to be we need to be uncomfortable!

 I cant let food control my every thought and waking moment. I cant always be in a frenzy asking myself, is this food good for me, is this Paleo enough, is this carb ok with this protein. I just need to find a healthy balance for my body. Not what is good for others I don't even know. So this week my goal is to not worry about this fad diet or that one. I will make and tweak my own. I will start a log and see the progression this next week.

 

My workouts this past week I completed:

miles ran week total = 11.477

Have to get back to cross training but was kind of lazy this past week

 

My Goal for this week =

Make a healthy balance in life for myself

 

My inspiration for this coming week:

 

 

 

 

The power of food!

I can not believe we are in August! I have had such a revelation today when I woke up so sick. I wasn't sick from the flu or cold. I was sick because I ate so many things that wasn't good for me. I'm not sure why I turn to food for comfort when it only gives comfort in a minimal way? I seem to forget real easy how I feel after I eat bad things. I was watching my fav show, Extreme weigh loss, and low and behold it was showing what happens to your body when you eat bad things. It was like the show was talking to me.

So going into the 8th month of the year and I'm stuck in the same position I was several months ago. It makes me mad, sad, pissed off, etc. I just want to have a good relationship with food, and I will keep searching for the answer to my questions, I will never ever give up!

My goal for this week:
Eat whole foods. If I complete 6 days, I get reward meal on 7th day.

Promise to self this week:
Step back and really watch the triggers because I'm worth it!

Motivation for this week:
To show my kids with hard work all things are possible!

My workouts this past week:
4 mile run
Pilate's DVD 30 min
super sculpting DVD  30 min
calorie buster DVD 45 min

My weight loss this past week :
.8th of a lb.

Onto a new healthy, Happy week!!